Let There Be Healing My Little Anorexia Rose
69
Please Play This Beautiful Song While Reading This Dedication
To All The Beautiful Girls In The World Who Have Lost Their Way..........
I know how much you suffer,
The anguish of your days,
Your hunger and your weakness,
That never goes away.
Your body is your focus,
The thin-ness you cannot see,
A constant, cruel obsession,
That rules your destiny.
Your not alone..
Laxatives and purging,
A horrid, daily chore,
The guilt and all the hopelessness,
Demands you do it more.
You hide your illness daily,
A weakness you deny,
That robs you of vitality,
Alone you sit and cry.
Don't cry my rose...
Never quite content,
With all the weight you have shed,
Your body stripped of nutrients,
Longing to be fed.
You believe with your body wasted,
How much happier you will be,
That is pure deception,
I know it once was me.
Look up to the sun and see the light that shines for you.
You see, I know the torment,
The darkness in the nights,
The obsession with my body,
It just never seemed just right.
Thin-ness won't bring you peace inside,
It is all a vicious lie,
That by starving our own bodies,
We will either live or die.
What is the world doing to you?
For when we’ve taken things too far,
Our attractiveness is lost,
For all the days we have suffered,
Look at what its cost.
My little rose your too young to die,
Don't throw your life away,
My eyes spill forth many tears,
As for you my rose, I pray.
There is hope little rose...
That little girl inside you,
That once ran in harmony ,
She is still there deep inside you,
Asking to be free.
See God's precious angels,
Standing bright and tall,
They're standing in your shadows,
In case that you should fall.
Angels weep for you
Look into your heart,
And you will truly see,
The strength, the hope, the spirit,
The chains to set you free.
Fight for life and sanity,
Become your own best friend,
Opt for health and laughter,
Let this madness end.
Time to take your life back my rose.
'Sometimes when you want something so bad, then when you finally get it, you realize you never wanted it at all.'
'Live, laugh, love, reach out your hand, for there may be no tomorrow. Be all you can, while you can'.
Copyright © 2009 Hubpages Blondepoet
I once too nearly died from this but become strong and well again
- Surviving Anorexia Nervosa
'I fell to the floor, my skeletal frame smashing upon the hard ground. Seconds later, there I was looking down at my wasted body so tiny on the hospital bed.So many faces around me, panic, commotion, nurses...
Please Feel Free To Leave Your CommentsLoading...
This was absolutely powerful, BP. I'm practically speechless after having read this. The music that accompanied your poem was perfect in its effect. You've reach a new plateau entirely by writing this. Thank you so much for sharing this with all of us. You are a beacon of compassion. xoxox
Dohn
Hi ThunderCattle wow that means the world to me, that my message is coming through and you came to have a read. I can't say thanks enough for your beautiful comment.
Hey Dohn,I appreciate that so much,seriously. Esp to have two guys here first who actually felt the message, makes me just shine that writing is all worthwhile. You r the bees knees. xox
BP words cannot describe this, its excellent, brilliant and should be out there on a more public forum than this. Can't you get that poem and pics into a mag like New Idea? I'd like to put your poem on my blog www.cindyvinesrelationshipadvice.blogspot.com. If I credit you, would that be okay? And is the one photo of the young girl in the denim shorts you?
You are the perfect voice to deliver this message of healing and hope. I pray someone in need finds this and takes it to heart before it's too late! Thanks BP.. you are a gift!
Hi Cindy no none of them are me, but yes I was about the same size, right on death's door, when I raised my little sword to the world and pulled myself out. Sure you can use it Cin I would be proud to see it across your page. You guys sure know how to make me feel good.
Hey Candie wow great to see you. I pray the same thing, if it can save just one life then it is all worthwhile. This disease is something I would never hope for anyone to come within 2 inches of. Thanks a million your the bees knees.
I feel the same about you Deb!! Hey Cin!! WooHoo!
Great message, BP. I do hope many young girls read - and realise how pointless it is!
Thanks a million Shalini I certainly hope so xox
This hub is like a punch in the stomach. Very effective though. I think it's very useful to talk about this topic, especially for those who know very little on the subject, like me. And this is one of the topics that only those who know very well, like you, can explain well. Very well done, rated up. And I'm glad you overcome it.
Hiya hynodude thanks so much for your imput. They say it is one of the hardest diseases to understand which makes it really frustrating for families trying to help, if I have shed some light that is awesome.
OMG! This pulled at my heart, and made my eyes wet. What a powerful message of understanding and hope. It has to be a devastating disease that eats at person's mind and soul. So glad you overcame this, and now you reach out and help, and educate, with the gift that you have of being able to write such, deep and beautiful poetry.
Read your last comment, yes, you have shed light, I could "see" it through your words.
I gave you a thumbs up.
This was amazing - the verse, the pics, and the music. What a powerful, moving combination. Ten thumbs up!!!
BP this is just too sad. Your poem is both lovely and heart-rending. What these young girls put themselves through is beyond belief. I'm so glad you found your way back off of this slippery downhill path.
"When we are weak we are too blind to see the angles that stand in our shadows" Wow, what a great statement! Very moving hub! Thank you so much for it!
Lovely poem and great message !People should love their real self more and forget about bodies. You are what you are inside! :)
What a wonderful combo of words and pictures. It is so sad that this type of behavior is running wild and unfortunately is accepted and expected in some places. I may not always be happy with the way my body looks, but I figure this is the way I am meant to be and there are things that are so much more important, valuable and priceless in life than the shape of our body.
I can barely express how powerful your words and images are to me. Though I've never suffered from this particular disorder, I've had many others. I do believe that often our 'addictions' appear in different guises.
This is beautiful.
Harrowing and a signpost to redemption... moved
What can I say Debbie, you just amaze me how you can switch from humor to a hub like this. That was just like Run Down said, harrowing, great hub and you are just awesome !
Dear Violet-sun thank-you so so much. I'm so happy this hub spoke to your heart.If it is my life calling to help these girls and other girls who have been through abuse I would be happy to dedicate my life to doing just this. Have a wonderful day.
Hi Habee thank-you so much for coming for a read. I'm so glad you liked it. It means a lot, have a good one :)
Hi Amanda thanks a million for your comment, it is so amazing what they put themselves through. It starts off as a notion to lose weight soon spiraling out of control, it is a horrible grip in the mind that is so hard to break from
Thank-you so much HV, it is so true, when we are depressed our eyes fail to see not only the hope that is there but even the beauty around us.
Hi Tantrum that is so true. That is exactly how these girls can recover. Getting into their hearts that their true beauty is on the inside, and its always been there.
Hi LMY, yes you have it going on, great attitude. The esteem of a anorexic is so so low, they believe they have no worth what-so-ever, it is so sad but 100% curable.
Hi Lorlie thank you so much, it is such a hard disease for others to understand, especially as we the anorexic do not understand it as well. I really appreciated your valuable comments.
Hi Run Down Battery, coming from a guy who found time to come and read this, it means a lot, thank-you.
Hi TG, awww you are the bees knees, thanks a million. It is great that I have been having real men coming over here to read it, shows what a unique great bunch of hubbers you are. x0
Noooo, it shows what an amazing writer and person you are and never ever forget that ! xo
Gosh TG thanks again buddy, I promise you I will never forget. You just gave me a smile longer than the Amazon.
wonderful empathy and compassion. very well written with a smoothe flow and rhythm. Nice!
Thanks a million Hollywood Alison
Wow, touching poem, horrifying photos (the girls are more death then alive) and I am so glad that you found the way how to heal anorexia. Thumbs up for you. Your Hub is truly moving and inspiring BP.
Hi Tatjana, thanks so much again. Yes the pics are indeed horrifying and what is even worse, is the girls in them still think they are fat, in this horrible disease,your eyes give a distorted image of the body and that is why the weight loss just keeps going downward. :)
This is so beautiful. It's best to watch our weight and nourish our bodies to be active and enjoy life as a participant and not spectator. Thanks for a thoughtful poem and hub.
Hey there Mickey thanks heaps. So true what you say, the real true way to losing weight is yes nourishing foods and healthy exercise. Your true blue Mickey.
Wonderfully written and very moving - my daughter suffered from this and it was the most frightening thing I've ever gone through because you feel so helpless. You are so talented! Keep on being you as you are beautiful.
Wow, Blondepoet this is a powerful hub with a deeply moving poem and painful photos. Life is precious and I hope the ladies suffering from anorexia recover before it's too late.
You are brave tackling this difficult subject.
Hi akirchner, I am dearly hoping when you said your daughter suffered from it, that she is now ok. You would know more than a lot of people how devestaing this is. Thank-you so much for your praise :)
Hi Raven I hope so too, it is so tragic. Thanks so much for dropping by love seeing you. Have a great day. xo
Tender, insightful, thoughtful piece about a painful and difficult subject. Those pictures depict such a harsh but telling and true reality for so many women with this condition. Thank you for shedding light on it. I'm so glad you found your way back...One can only hope that others--friends, family members, women who are reading your Hub right now--can also find their way back to a healthy, happy version of themselves as well.
Thanks so much Trips I really appreciate your thoughtful comments. I dearly hope those who are in need of help will let the words in their heart.
Yes - our daughter is okay - and I should have said that - thank goodness. It was terribly traumatic and it made us both feel so powerless. We saw the signs and we could not believe it - but reality is the deal. Thankfully she got lots of help and it worked out okay - as in your case. It is a terribly prevalent problem and I understand it because we all have our ways of dealing with stress and our self image. It is just part of the package I guess what coping mechanism people select. Kudos to all of us who overcome what is bugging us!
Thanks so much akirchner for taking the time to come back. I am thrilled she is good, a huge relief. When you say you were powerless, that is such a spot on way of describing what it is like for the anorexia's family and friends. Your daughter is so blessed to have a parent like you.
beautiful poem, I am not anorexic, just skinny hehe, Maita
Hiya prettydarkhorse thanks so much for coming by. Yes there certainly is a difference to being skinny and anorexic. I am sure you are beautiful just the way you are.
Wow BP nicely done, it is sooo sad that people are killing themselves trying to be perfect.
Thanks so much Mikel for coming by. I know it is a tragedy to die and to look like what? Most of these girls are perfect to begin with, it really is so sad :)
Oh my goodness if I could give you an Oscar I would. This is simply awesome! The story told, the poetry written, the dramatic pictures revealing this disease. There was a time I was worried my sister was going down this road, however, thank God she got herself together before it was too late. Great hub thanks for sharing your experience and that of others. I'm rating this one back up!
Aww thanks MG you have made me feel like a million dollars. Thank God your sister turned away from that road, it shows the strength us women have, some just have to dig a little deeper to find it.
Wow BP, you continue to amaze and move me, I'm crying at this (bloody softy arn't I lol) seriously though this is brilliant, such great use of words and very well put together, the music just gives it that finishing touch. You are a beautiful, strong person Blondepoet a great writer and an inspiration, keep shining :) xo
Aww Sophs it shows you have a beautiful heart. You remind me of me, I am a huge softy inside and I cry at the drop of a hat. Thank-you for your beautiful comments, may you continue to shine my little chickadee. xo
Needless to say, this is a sobering and important subject. I'm not overlooking the young women who are so harmed by this; but all I kept thinking, when looking at those pictures, was how horrible it would be for a parent to watch his/her beautiful child starved to this point.
Hi Lisa oh yes it would be devastating for a parent to see, looking back now I can see how those that were close to me must have felt to see me like that. Thank-you so much for coming by. :)
it look serious problem. Thanks for share with us. and the picture also.
Thank-you so much prasetio for all your wonderful comments. :)
I nearly lost my older sister to this terrible illness. It is an illness and Thank God you are recovering from it. I know because of my sister’s battle with this, that you are never completely recovered from it! It is a battle you must face every day and I commend your commitment and inner strength! I cried while reading you poem! Thank you for sharing and saving 1,000's of your readers lives!
I rated this hub up a notch!
Aww thank-you so much cluense. You out of all people would understand especially having your sister going through this how utterly tragic it all is. You are so so right you never completely get over it, it tries to rise up its head daily. When I see it coming I close my eyes and say to myself "No".
I never want to go down that road again. Never.It is an easy road to go down coming back up is such a struggle.
I hope it can help even one soul who happens to stumble across it. Your comments mean heaps to me thank-you.
Some powerful photos.
Yes they are Sandy. Very frightening too but so very real. Thanks for stopping by.
That is so sad and yet uplifting in the way you presented it. Too often eating disorders are presented in such a way that even though well intentioned, it actually shames the people it intended on helping. Your choice of music as a compliment was a very good idea. But we already know that you are full of good ideas. Great job as usual BP.
Now don't let it go to your head.
Unless that is where you'd like it...hmmm...
Blondepoet - A truly amazing poem, that will touch the heart of so many lives. I am speechless! My heart goes out to all that know someone or have fallen victim to this devastating disorder themselves.
Congratulations to you for overcoming this. A truly amazing feat in itself. One knows, you have had to be there to write something like this. Your words come from the depth of knowing and your heart speaks the language from the years of pain held deep within. You are truly an inspiration to all!
This poem needs to be out there far beyond hub pages. I really hope that you will try to publish it else where. Maybe start with Oprah! She has a beautiful heart as deep and as wide as yours.
Thanks so much, Hugs!
Sage
Aww thanks Blake you are the bees knees. I love it going to my head as I don't wear a hat. I really appreciate your comment, went through this myself and my journey nearly ended. Thanks a million. :)
Thanks so much Sage, I was actually thinking of taking it further as Cindy also suggested it but did not know where to take it. That is a brilliant idea. I am so glad you came by here and it touched your heart. :)
wow. you know what is shocking is these models in these pictures, still being prepped for the runway, even though they are obviously suffering, and no one seems to notice, or care. i'm still listening to the song as i type this comment. it was perfect for this ;_;
i'm all out of words now.
I seen these photos before. It is hard to believe that someone would let them self go to this extreme.
Hi Cosette I know it is like their tiny little frames are acceptable to continue modeling. They should be doing so much more to help these girls instead of encouraging women to be pencil thin coat-hangers. I have a tear in my eye. :)
Hi there Sandy I know it is so very tragic to see a woman or a man wasting away like this. I hope some-one with this condition stumbles on this page to know there is hope to go back to the wonderful person inside.
I am in shock--the words--the pictures...all of it...so very sad. Powerful hub-just so powerful--brings tears to my eyes! You have the power of the pen!
By the way--not many people know who Eva Cassidy is nor her music--I don't know if you have heard her sing but it is is so beautiful--she is no longer here--but her music touches many. "Somewhere over the rainbow" will just make you weep--listen to it one day!
Thank-you so much Ghost I am so glad you read this piece. You know when choosing music for this poem I actually listened to Somewhere Over The Rainbow and I nearly was going to choose it, it touched me inside. I never realised she was gone. What happened to her?
I used to listen to a lot of Eva Cassidy's music--Over the rainbow is the only rendition I have ever heard, other than the original--that I just loved! She died at 33 years old from malignant mole-melanoma. Her voice was beautiful!
This song is my favorite!
Wow Ghost yes her music is from angels, so beautiful. Thirty-three how tragic, will go check out your link, thanks so much Ghost.
The article is so beautiful, I'm speechless. Thank you
oh Lisa I am so glad you read this poem, you beat me into asking you to. As one sufferer to another let us celebrate who we are today :) :)
This is an attention getting hub, blondepoet. The pictures are striking and nearly made me cry. I had to turn away for a moment because the extreme skeletal visuals were powerful. In doing so, I inadvertently did EXACTLY and precisely what these women in the pictures fear is being done (people are finding them less than beautiful)...I can only be honest here...this illness of starving and purging does not turn out physical beauties...it turns out skeletal thin individuals (again, I'm sorry) that people will turn away from. Strangely enough, I don't find myself turning away from pictures of an individual - or feeling like I'm coming to a point of tears or worrying about someone's health - if I see an individual who is 10, 20 - heck, even 50 or 60 units overweight! Again, I feel I should apologize for my reaction here. I wish I didn't have to turn away upon first glance, but it was my human reaction. *hangsheadlow*
Hiya mythbuster yes I did want to get people's attention on this horrible disease that once did nearly ruin my life. There is a link here to my other hub I shared my story on anorexia and my battle with it. In the poem on the other hub I mentioned that by doing this to our bodies all our attractiveness is lost, and at what cost? Yes I understand completely it is very hard to look at these girls, who could be our sisters, daughters, friends, I just hope it helps someone dearly who is fighting this. :) :)
It's so sad and irresponsible that the fashion industry insist that their slim models lose more weight to become skeletal. Did the media contribute to your illness?
Hi Bailey oh without a doubt it did. Sometimes I think the media should be crucified for the image they send out for women to follow. It really should.
Blondepoet, it is with a wet face that I make this comment. This is perhaps the most powerful piece of writing I have ever seen and I only wish that millions of those in need could see and experience it, for it is indeed an experience.
Your last photo, in particular, puts a period to it for me in a way that nothing else could.
I thank you.
Oh thank-you so much wilderness for such a beautiful and uplifting comment I personally receive. You really have made my day and yes I wish too that everyone suffering this horrible deadly disease could see it too. xo
The images are enough to make a 62-year-old man wince, then cry. So much hurt. We can all only pray for each of these young women and for those who set a standard for their mistaken idea of beauty.
Give me a Jean-Paul Rubens any day!!
Thank-you so much Wayne for your encouraging and uplifting comment.It is such a horrible heart breaking disease,the world needs to see. Have a great day.
This was incredibly powerful and moving. You've done an amazing job, thanks for sharing this.
Thank-you so much Lamme it was my pleasure and joy. I am thrilled to hear your uplifting response, have a great day. :)
Hello BP, hope all is well with you..a very influential hub which has been written immaculately...I am sure this would be an eye opener for many out there..I am amazed by the versatility of your topics…keep hubbing...cheers
Oh Magic Boy such wonderful comments like yours truly inspire me and strengthen me so much. I have been thinking I should get this poem out there but not quite sure the best place to put it. Thanks heaps for reading so many of my hubs your support is wonderful to me. xo
That poem is absolutely amazing!
for a few years i went through a stage of Anorexia, and I had to be submitted to hospital. i know believe that everyone in the world needs more understanding of eating disabilities, and how easily they emerge. i remember that i stopped eating after a friend told me that if i kept eating chips i was going to get fat.
I was wondering if i could please use your poem in a poetry anthology I am constructing for a school assessment. my anthology, 'what is normal?' is focused around groups that are judged unfairly, and discriminated against in society because of our obsession with perfection.
would you also be able to answer these questions?;
- what is the tone and mood you wanted to get across to the reader?
- Does 'rose'represent an actual person, or is it symbolism for the beauty each girl has?
Thank you!
love and best wishes
I don't mind if it is for school I just haven't allowed it on the web yet as I am going to bring it out there very shortly. If you could use my name as a copyright much appreciated. I am sorry that you too went through that teenager years can get you if you are not careful. The mood I wan't to get across was one of awareness and to get people right in the heart, to become more aware of this disease. Rose is just symbolism for the beauty each girl has. Cheers and good luck.
 | Amazon Price: $12.16 List Price: $21.95 |
 | Amazon Price: $0.99 |
More Help For Healing From The Past From This Author
- Through The Eyes Of A Child
I never had the chance to be,The way a child should be,Running through the school yard,With a heart so young and free.Instead I sat so quietly,No-one could understand,Why I held my head so sadly,While they danced hand in hand - Surviving Anorexia Nervosa
'I fell to the floor, my skeletal frame smashing upon the hard ground. Seconds later, there I was looking down at my wasted body so tiny on the hospital bed.So many faces around me, panic, commotion, nurses...
ThunderCattle 2 years ago
Bondepoet,
may i say this is the best piece and dedication i have ever read and looked at. may god bless your beautiful heart.
love tony